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Love Life
The love of my life!
Pretty self explainitory! My love life page is dedicated to my current relationship statuses or love life ;) If you want to know more about what's been going on lately, I will be updating the page link here soon!
Sorry everyone, this page is going to be under construction. There's been a lot going on lately which I do have a page about everything that has happened the past few months but will not have it up and ready for a little bit longer...Sorry to get a little personal but basically, I've been kind of single. And heartbroken. I have been meaning to update this page for a while because I wrote it so long ago and some of the things were stupid and am going to have a sepearate page for everyone else that I think anyone should kind of know of or know about that had impacted my life but I won't go too into detail or get too personal. I give up on love and I deserve much better than anyone out there can treat me apparently...I just want to fall in love and be happy. I want someone who won't ever hurt me. Who will come home to me every night and never abandone me or leave me. I don't want to be ignored. Cheated on. Mentally or physically abused. I don't want someone who is going to fuck with my head or play games. I just want someone who knows what they want and can realize how deserving and amazing I could be to them too...I want them to find me perfect and put me first as I do with them...is that really too much to ask? I thought maybe it had something to do with age...but no matter how mature or immature, men are all the same.....He has no idea what he has done to me. I don't understand though because I know I'm the best he's ever had. I'm out of his leaque, an infamous model with a fun and loving personality that we both share a lot in common with and I never used him like all his exes, I actually cared and really loved him. But I always give or care too much I guess...But karma is enough in this knowing that he will never and can never do better than me. He would have to downgrade or settle for less in that case I guess...I'm have tempted to just give up but I guess I'll be taking a break with this whole love and relationship thing. Nobody wants to commit or knows what they want anymore...He tells me he wants me and it's not me but it's what he is going through and he says that he knows he can't do better that he wants to be with me but actions speak louder than words. Until further notice, I'm pretty much single I guess but I'm not looking right away...I just need time to heal. A lot of time. But maybe eventually...We'll see what happens I guess...But the closest way I can explain it is through some little motivation heartbreak quotes; (lol)
'Never lose yourself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.'
'You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or maybe, she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love.'
'You've got a lot to say for being the one that walked away...'
'You gave me up so easily...'
'When love is real, it doesn't lie, cheat, pretend, hurt you or make you feel unwanted. It's supposed to be a cure to all your worries.'
'If I treated you the way you treated me; You would hate me.'
'It may seem like the hardest thing to do but you have to forget the guy who forgot about you.'
'The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love with no intention of loving her.'
'Stop asking me to trust you while I'm still coughing up water from the last time you let me drown.'
'Sometimes you have to forget what you want to remember what you deserve.'
'I dont trust words. I trust actions.'
'Stay away from people who make you feel like you are hard to love.'
'Talk is cheap. If you like me, tell me. If you miss me, show me. If you love me, prove it.'
'Don't raise your voice; improve your argument.'
'I'm not the girl I used to be. I admit, a lot of shit got to me...'
'You've become so damaged that when someone tried to give you something you deserve, you have no fucking idea how to respond.'
'Sometimes I miss you...then I remember the shit you put me through and I'm like "Fuck that shit!"'
'Crazy part is; I don't have it in me to do people how they have done me.'
'With all the smiles you brough me, I never thought that you could cause me so many tears...'
'Sometimes we create our own heartbreaks through expectation.'
'It's so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember...'
'The people who are quick to walk away are the ones who never intended to stay.'
'I'm always the one who loves more. That's my problem..'
'A girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her.'
'Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finall say; "I'm used to it."'
'It's better to break your own heart by leaving, rather than having that person break your heart every day you're with them.'
'Sometimes we aren't meant to get over someone. And then we go on living a little bit emptier.'
'You don't know what it feels like when you ignore me. I just feel so paranoid, all day I'll be thinking; What have I done wrong?'
'Missing someone is a horrible feeling, but knowing they don't miss you back is so much worse.'
'Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you. Feel sad for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them.'
'I wanna do exactly what you did to me. Lead you on. Make you fall for me. Then just let you go.'
'People ask me why I still love him? Honestly, I don't really know but there's something about him and I just can't let him go. '
'Never go back to an old love; No matter how strong it is, becasue it's like reading a book over and over again when you already know how it ends.'
'I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.'
'If you leave someone, at least tell them why. Because what's more painful than being abandoned; is knowing you're not worth an explaination.'
'That's always the hardest thing when someone completely has you fooled so much, that you think they're just never going to hurt you, then they do. That's when you get the worst heartbreak.'
'I wish I could go back to the day I met you and just walk away. Because honestly, it would've saved me so much hurt and pain.'
'The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable; they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed.'
'Maybe one day, I'll be what you need. But don't wait too long...because the day you want me, may be the day I've finally given up...'
'Why can't you love like me?'
'Just for once, I wanna be somebody's first and only choice.'
'I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to hurt me, but you did.'
'It makes me sick to my stomach when I think about how easily you tricked me into thinking you actually cared about me. What if everyone has been doing this to me this whole entire time to get what they want from me? Because of you, I'm now afraid to trust people.'
'I wish that I had never met you. Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten or broken promises. No need for being rejected or avoided. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care. No need for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing...'
'You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.'
'I knew I was right about you all along. I just wish I was wrong about it.'
'I will never forget the things you said to me. Not because they mattered but because they made me feel like I did.'
'One of the worst things about going through the pain that comes with heartbreak is the thought that the person you're crying over may even feel as though you're dying over is off enjoying themselves and are not the elast bit concerned and could care less about the pain you're going through...what's even more fucked up is you're probably right.'
'Love ends too quickly and heartbreak lasts too long.'
'She's beautiful but she'll never admit it. Music is her life, literally. Ask for a good song and she'll give you five. Sweats and wearing her hair down are her trademarks. She's afraid of the dark and obsessed with her friends. When she smiles her whole face lights up. And her heart is broken by a guy who doesn't love her. And you know what? She actually cares.'
'I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast because every time I fall in love...it never seems to last.'
'Love leaves a memory that no one can steal. But sometimes, it leaves a heartache that no one else can heal...'
'I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you'll eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.'
'If you think you're in love, run your head into a brick wall. It'll hurt a lot less in the end.'
'Don't break anybody's heart, they only have one. Break their bones, they have 206.'
'Dear brain, I know he's all you think about but I think we need to move on, I mean, he already has...'
'Fuck you for leaving me when I needed you the most!'
'It's like once you've been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to just break you heart.'
'She's a little scared to get close to anyone because everyone that ever said; "I'll always be here for you.", left.'
'I used to think that I was the one who messed up. That you were the one who was too good for me. That everyone else was just lying, trying to help me feel better. That I'd be dumb for letting you go. That I should just keep trying. That I was in over my head. But now? I know your the one who lost me. And you will never find better or get one of my tears again.'